Beautiful.

Beautiful.

“The truth is, I want to feel my pain. I want to feel the sadness and the near-burning nostalgia of leaving a place and a people I love, because it deserves it. Everything beautiful that we experience in life, when it suffers or comes to an end, is going to be filled with this kind of aching sorrow. But that is a good thing, because it means that it had significance in your life, that it cannot be easily dismissed like so many other things you let roll off your back. To be sad when the end comes is to pay homage to everything that was great, to all that it gave you, to who you are because of it. And yes, it is “weak” to cry and write letters and talk about your sadness. It is “weak” to rest your head on someone’s chest and welcome being consoled. It is “weak” to focus, at least temporarily, on the pain you feel. But it is also wonderful. It is a moment in which you feel alive, human, and fully connected to the things that you touch in life. There are few moments where we lose or change or move on from something great, and those moments do make us weak. To be strong and silent in the face of them — to deny that they have touched you and will leave a great absence in your life — is to dismiss its importance. You may find yourself needing the support of friends and family, to be reassured and have your hand held. You may need to be reminded of what is good, and that the pain will subside. You may need to lean on someone. And that’s okay.”

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Author: Clarissa A.

The older I get, the less I know.

1 thought on “Beautiful.”

  1. Agreed. There is no better way to appreciate the wonderful things in your life than to miss them for a bit. And it sounds like you are finding new wonderful experiences along the way. You’re right… It’s not weakness. Weakness is when you won’t allow yourself to feel because sometimes it hurts and sometimes it’s almost unbearable. I wouldn’t wish cancer on anyone, but if you are dealt that hand – at least take from it everything that you can. Keep that chin up. You are amazing and inspiring.

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