I used to write posts, listing the highlights of the year in a month-by-month timeline. This year, I invested in pushing myself to go deeper. I found this list of questions in an “End Your Year Intentionally” article, and liked the idea of reflecting more than just sifting through old photos and calendar items.
1. What makes this year unforgettable?
We got married! Although, we already forgot to celebrate our 6 month anniversary (now we have TWO bottles of wine for our one-year). Not only was the wedding planning in itself something I won’t forget, the photos, videos, notes, and memories with all of our family and friends together will stay with us all our lives.
2. What did you enjoy doing this year?
I think this was one of my biggest struggles in 2019. After all the life adjustments ceased, I didn’t know what to do with myself (I even finished a large chuck of xmas shopping in August). The flooding put a damper on kayaking (I didn’t make it to the river this year), and I have yet to find a violin teacher. Weekends were spent cleaning up from storm after storm.
But what did I enjoy…. we invested in furniture for our sunroom. I enjoyed reading out there when temps were just cool enough to keep me inside. I went on a handful of trips – Sedona AZ, Silverthorn CO, Ft Worth TX, Davenport IA. Blake and I got our feet wet (me literally, as I didn’t have waders) with fly fishing on our own without a guide, and took our first venture with our camper. Fozz came too!
I did finally sync up with a regular volleyball team – indoor even! I enjoyed Thursday nights on the court, and at the bar after. I hope to continue with them as long as they will have me!
I do feel, like 2020 will be the year to re-align myself with hobbies. Even my Christmas gifts all revolved around ways to invest myself in hobbies and pursuits.
3. What/who is the one thing/person you’re grateful for?
My mom, first of all. I know she is working so hard with my dad, and getting the house in order on her own. I can’t imagine what would happen without her around. She also played a huge role in the wedding planning and execution this year!
Professionally, I had a major influencer early in the year, that was so instrumental on me being able to survivie my first few months at work. Without her being a quick email and phone call away to talk through pretty much anything, I would have been so much more lost!
4. What’s your biggest win this year?
Surviving this year professionallly. In my role, every month is new and different, and often I felt like I was just barely squeaking by. Getting through the year with no major (okay maybe one) mess ups feels like a victory!
Also, as I realign with my budgeting, making sure I’m investing in my “personal care” line item. It’s easy as a consumer to buy buy buy, but making sure I focus on spending on opportunities that don’t result in things, but do better myself. I completed a six week session (1 night per week) on an internal reflection of myself and answering, what really, do I want to do in my life? It involved yoga, mediation, journaling, and discussion as a very small and intimate group.
5. What did you read/watch/listen to that made the most impact this year?
I tried to focus on reading through magazines that had been accumulating during wedding planning, particularly, Outside Magazine. They had released an issue about some of the most major and tragic accidents that had happened during the pursuit of outside recreation (it was pretty dark). However, it was reassuring at the time, to know that as much as I felt like things were out of my control (natural disasters at home, not knowing what I was doing in my role at work), the consequences are absolutely manageable. Also, really, be prepared for hiking and recreation trips.
During some of our trips, Blake and I got into some podcasts (nothing too crazy). But it’s nice to find some interests together!
6. What did you worry about most and how did it turn out?
Most major events at work gave me major anxiety. Since most our staff is new, I felt like I was trying to plan events to levels of expectations from our members, without any sort of guidance on what those expectations were. Overall, things were just fine. I laugh, as sometimes I felt the expectations of my role were so low, like the times our staff was suprised I attended the events I planned.
Obviously, the wedding was a big worry, and it was great! It rained that day, and thanks to my bridesmaids suggestions, I was able to change timelines with the photographers and get all our photos in before it poured.
7. What was your biggest regret and why?
I think as a whole, not making as many personal connections as I’d like. From past friends in Lincoln, to new friends, neighbors, and church members in Doniphan and Hastings, I feel like I’m letting “busy” start to be my excuse on not reaching out (which just means I’m not prioritizing appropriately).
8. What’s one thing that changed about yourself?
I can feel myself growing more into a leadership role. I know in groups I get very passive, but as circles around me are smaller and get more familiar, I am much more comfortable voicing my opinions and standing up and speaking out for them when they are questioned.
9. What surprised you the most this year?
I’ve gotten more pedicures in this year, than I probably have my entire life combined. Maybe it’s a combination of the “investing in myself”, or maybe I’m just tired of spending so much time on my feet!
Honestly, I also have yet to establish any routine for fitness. I’m suprised how much weight I DIDN’T gain (but I probably shouldn’t push my luck in 2020!)
10. If you could go back to last January 1, what suggestions would you give your past self?
A continuation of trying to stay present. This year absolutely flew by! Between figuring out the new job, planning and getting married, all the work at home over the summer, it is definately a releif that the year is over. But, there is so much that happened, that I won’t remember!
Stay disciplined with the small stuff. It was good to have the bigger picture goals, but they often get overwhelming. Sometimes when stuck, tackling SOMETHING is better than nothing. But, don’t be afraid to pause that something, if it’s taking you down the wrong path.
Keep your eyes open for new ideas, and new solutions you didn’t know were there. It was definately a, ‘just put one foot in front of the other’ year!